Once again, I got myself in the same old hole that I've been struggling with.
I was kinda sorta planning to move on but always hesitate about it every night.
So I decided to take the risk again and try not to hope or expect too much from it.
After I enjoyed drinking and dancing with my teammates last Saturday, I was surprised I got a text from him after not hearing from him for the past two weeks.
I ended up staying over at his place last weekend and he was much nicer to me this time.
I still can't help questioning myself if he was just using me whenever he feel it's convenient for him.
I don't know. I really don't.
It's so hard to read his mind and it drives me nuts!
I'm wondering if my second risk is even worthy at all?
Honestly, I started to get fed up with the way he treated me despite how much feelings I have for him. Sometimes I just want to give up and move on with my life but somehow I just can't let it go.
2 comments:
it's me commenting again ..
js to encourage u
i'd recently had the same thing as u..
the guy frantically called me and he treated me better this time. I do felt like he's using me also despite the feelings of mine towards him.
It's saddening u know ? If you're positive and certain that he has NO feeling like yours to him, better pull out or else it will get deeper.
The 1st second of letting it go is damn hurting. But, time will prove everything. For me, I know that God will give me a greater guy..
One you worth waiting for ; )
good luck, cheers !
thanks hun for commenting on my blog and previous two too! :) really appreciate it!
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