Wish I could share this with you

You have no idea how difficult it is to suppress my feelings for you.
There were so many times I wanted to ask you if we could go back to where we started.
And maybe things would be a little different now.

I always thought I’m over you but I never was.
It’s been almost two years since I first met you, I don’t think I ever stop liking you.
I never stop questioning myself why am I so attracted to you.
Are you always this mysterious to every woman you meet?
Is that part of your charm? Or is it part of your trick to keep woman around?
What kind of spell do you put on woman?

I guess I have not learnt a bit after everything I’ve been through.
Because I always go back to you no matter how cold you treated me.
I know it’s not healthy for me.
I know it’s messed up.
But you still affect me in every way.

Why can’t I just fucking move on and forget you already?