confused

I don't know

if it's my strong craving for it...

Or

if I were just jealous I couldn't any while they get some...

Or

if it's because of PMS...

Or

I can't even think of what to say...

Honestly, there were so many times I was so tempted to chat with him when I see him online but I held back. I even had thoughts of sending him a msg.

It's funny that I realized something for the past three weeks that I do miss him but more like physical attraction, if you know what I mean. Ha!

I really don't like myself right now. I haven't really been myself either. What's wrong with me?? I'm a mess!!