New website :)

So I decided to switch from xanga to blogspot because I think I like the layout at blogspot better. I'm not sure if I'll cancel my xanga account..well I probably should..

Anyways, I'm at the Fetzer academic center..it's for all athletes to study, homeworking, tutoring, study group and etc..

I skipped my class and both practices today. Since I knew the coaches would call my cellphone, so I turned it off. I still haven't turn it on yet because I'm too scared to hear crazy voice msg from the coaches. I didn't go to bed til three this morning because I was watching movies online, I set my alarm for morning practice. I turned my alarm off then felt back asleep and woke up at five fifty. I knew that I would be late for practice because it started at six. I still got dressed and walked to practice..But I was too afraid to go in to the pool so I stood there for five minutes and decided to leave. Seriously, I really don't know what's wrong with me since I got back from the swim meet. I felt like I suddenly have severe depression attack..I kinda don't want to live anymore...I just want to rebel and not doing anything so the coaches will kick me off the team...

Should I talk to someone about this? Who should I talk to? I don't trust anyone in the team...they will think that I'm having mental health....