Can I really get through this?

A week ago, I thought things would be alot better now. However, it is not what I expected at all. I felt that it's still the same, or even worse...I don't even know. I tried to cheer up..I really did but I just can't. It felt so difficult to me.

I've been pretty much isolating myself from my roommates last week and this week as well. I think this is the only way that can make myself a little better. I know that's very selfish of me doing that to my roommates but I don't think it will help me even if I talk to any of them. Will they really understand how I feel? Will they even listen to me? Will they even bother?

Thank god I have my own room. Since the walls in the apt are so thin, I can hear mostly everything. So, with my roommates pre-drinking and gaming at the kitchen are not helping me either because I still can hear them. At least I have my headphones with loud music on and they helped alot.

It's so hard to get through all this by myself...I really don't know how long I still can take it..