In Denial

I’m pretty sure I have put on weight since I got back to the States last fall. Perhaps my friends are being nice to me, because no one has said anything to me here. But, I can definitely feel it. Like from head to toes.

I know I should control my diet and exercise when I get the chance. But heyy…it’s easier said than done.

well I guess we'll find out when my mom gets here tomorrow. Since she hasn't seen me since last August 2010, she probably can tell the different right away -.-

So creepy!

So...I've been a bad bad student for skipping classes part of last week and AGAIN today -.- Really didn't mean to though, coz I was actually planning to make up the stuff that I supposed to do over the weekend.

Shouldn't have taken the damn power nap, because it ended up turning into a 7hrs sleep. I have a terrible nightmare. It was def my punishment. I dreamed that one of my close friend has cancer, and the chance to survive is very small. I was devastated. Thank god it was just a dream.

Like always...I went to dreammoods.com to interpret why I dreamed what I dreamed. I searched for cancer. And it said - To dream that someone has cancer, indicates that you need to change your negative way of thinking before it eats away at you. Start being more positive.

So right on man! It freaked me out! I really gotta get my shit together! Come on Tinger! You got this!!!

Turning to an owl

My sleeping habit is not getting any better. Definitely did a horrible job going to bed at the right time over spring break. And school resumes in like 3 hours, I'm so gonna suffer from sleep deprivation. Hopefully drinking coffee and tea continually throughout the day will help me stay awake 0.0

Only a month and about three weeks left of school until graduation. I know I can get through this! Gambate Tinger!!~

New bangs don't care

Decided to cut my hair one night, u like u like? :P

Two more days til school resume, gahhh!

Have a good wknd everyone!~

Doubts

Sometimes you think that's what you want

But you're not sure if that's what you want

And you get confused that's what you want

Then you wind up immerse in thinking what you want

Eventually you will figure out exactly what you want

Feeling inspired

I haven't been in a mood to blog until just now...very random I know!

Not sure why...perhaps it's because I've been experimenting on my third black and white abstract painting for past two hours?!

Anyways, I thought it would be fun to change the background to one of my recent abstract painting I did in class. I wanted to upload the other painting but the image size was too big -.- Ooo well...I hope whoever that stop by my blog like it!

Alrighty, Ima go check on my painting now. Later alligator!~

My New Years Resolution

1) Lose weight

2) Get back in shape

3) Pay off two of my credit cards

4) Learn to manage my money spending

5) Don't waste money on unnecessary things

6) Always have a positive mind

7) Finish well with good grades in my last semester of undergrad

8) Always remind myself to appreciate the existence of my family and good friends

9) Never Give up

Oh Life...

Thank god I got to finish my fall semester with 3.0ish. I can't believe I only have one semester left, then I'll be done with my undergrad!!

I left faytown on the 15th and got to Chicago that evening. I enjoyed not doing anything for few days but the boredom started to hit me. I feel like a slacker. Gahhh! I've been looking for part time jobs on craiglist in Chicago, but most of the jobs last more than a month.

Anyways, I'm excited I get to spend Xmas with Jen and her older sister's fiancées family in the Suburbs. I met the family in the summer for wedding tasting, super friendly and funny people. I can't wait to see a close friend of mine during New Years!

Perhaps my brain is not used to not being occupied, because I haven't been able to function well lately lol. Thus, all the random ramblings.

I'm just gonna end my blog today with some pictures after my finals and some in Chicago.

Bring my portrait bust back to my apt :) (She's wrapped with black trash bag so I don't get the plaster all over me)

Meet my new bf, George. He's one handsome man, isn't he?

Snowy day in Chicago 0.0

Me n Jen on our way back to the apt :)

My sketch on the canvas board before I paint it with acrylic (This is a present from me for the family I'm spending Xmas with)

That's all for now folks. Merry Xmas and have a happy new year everyone! xoxo

Finally a littler breather from art projects and papers!

I know it's been a short while since I last updated this space of mine :) But here I am, feeling content and accomplished because I've been working hard at school. I can't even recall how much time I've spent in the art building, it's pretty much my second home now. Although doing all these art projects are time consuming, but I enjoy every moment of it. It's amazing the extra time I spent outside classes to paint or sculpting, that brought me closer to my classmates. They are all talented, funny and nice people. I feel so blessed being able to meet them. Sometimes I wish I got into this art classes earlier. Oh well, everything happen for a reason right? :D Anyways, I'm done sharing my thoughts here. And for the next post, I'll upload the progress of my portrait bust for my sculpture class. Stay tuned!

It's about time

I've been a very bad bad student

and I'm not very proud of it.

Things wouldn't been that bad if I didn't choose to ignore.

Now I chose to deal with it, it's gonna be ten times harder.

It's going to be a stressful for the next few weeks.

But I know I can do this.

It's been a while

I'm getting sick of my blog template.

Prolly will change it soon when I have time.

Maybe my writing style too.

We'll see :)

A lil update bt myself

Ok..it's official I'm taking a break from swimming so I can focus on my studies and graduate next May. This also means that I won't be taking part in Commonwealth games and Asian Games this year.

Enjoying my summer so far without swimming. Just two classes from Monday til Friday.

Been trying to control my diet since I no longer practice like I used to. Doing pretty well so far :)

Oh and about my last post, don't worry too much about it. Because I changed my mind AGAIN. I guess love makes you do crazy things sometimes..lol

I can't wait to go home and get my license and then get my license in the States. Then, my first car!!! Ahhh! So freaking excited!!

Bittersweet

I can't believe I'm going back to Fayetteville in three days. Time really flies...especially the good times with my family and close friends. I really don't think I'm ready to leave home yet. But I got no choice because I need to finish my senior year at Arkansas. And I want to make it a good one!

When I get back, I gotta get my mind set for all my goals in school and swimming.

Always remember take one thing at a time!

I can do this!! :)

wow

okayy so i've been drinkin a lil bit but not that drunk..

anyways, wanna kno what happened when i went out to the bars earlier?

i was having a good time w my friends.

then surprise!! a text from him..

i wasn't that nice when i responded..

but..i still responded.

that's not the point.

he's ard the same area where i was.

i was at this bar talkin to my friend.

til my other friend told me she saw him but he turned ard.

i was really confused at first then i asked who?!!!

then i realized it was him...i was pissed!!

seriously...he was the one who texted me first..

he saw me but turned around n didn't say hi?!!!

wow...

that's fucking messed up..

Doneee!

Finally I'm done with all my finals.

For some reason, the finals wk felt so much longer than last year.

I'm just praying I'll pass my geology class -.-

I thought there'd be 50 questions but I was wrong!! There were 100 questions!

I was trying so hard not to panic coz I know I'll forget everything.

I just did all the questions I was 100% there were right then I guessed the rest of them...

I know it's over but I still can't help worrying bt it coz that's the class I'm concerned most.

Finger cross and pls pray for me to pass.

I don't know why I'm pretty excited for this summer...lol.

I can't wait to lay out again!! Woahh!

Summer here I come :)

Loneliness

I'm really sick of fooling around.

I just want to settle down.

My mum told me to be patient.

But I'm getting tired of waiting...

So where is he?

Random

I know I'm not supposed to be writing this now but I'm having a major writer's block so yea....

Good news!!!
I finally got my new phone today! :)

Bad news!!
I didn't do as well as I wanted to for my bio anthro exam. I should've reviewed it more but it's too late now. Buttt I still have the final exam next wk to pump my grades up so I can't give up yet.

Blahhhh....I haven't swam since Monday and I don't think the coaches will be happy with that..Besides, my grades are not going to be very pretty this semester -.-

Alright..I gotta go get st to eat...im starving!!! Peaceeeee

AH!!!!!

Things haven't gotten any better but worse...

Seriously my life fucking suck right now and i hate it to passion!!

I hate not having my phone.

I hate not able to communicate w people.

I hate asking people to borrow their phones.

I hate not knowing when I can get my new phone.

I hate my internet still doesn't work.

I hate no one can find out why my internet doesn't work.

I hate my computer is acting retarded.

I hate when some people keep on making so much noise when I try to get some work done.

I hate when some people giggle and laugh on st but not tell you.

I hate feeling that way.

Yes. I hate everything right now.

It's annoying the shit out of me.

I'm going nutsssssss!

bored n tired

I was gonna nap after I get back from brunch but...I got so hooked being on the comp esp fb -_-

There I am, still up...don't kno what to do with myself now...

Even tho I kno I could make use of the time and get some work done so I don't have to procrastinate tom...ahhh! Y can't I put half of the effort I use in swimming to my classes??!

I'm just a fucking lazy ass. I'm not jst saying to make ppl feel bad. I kno I am one!

Me not being a lazy ass will be one of my biggest challenge in my life...like fa real!! lol!

So I got bored and started wander ard my room and also to my roommates on the other side...ya I kno I shouldn't but...I was jst looking ya kno...and then I found st...that is quite personal. Opps!
Naw I'm not gonna say anything here...or even tell anyone else. Jst to myself. Maybe one person..lol.

Karma will prolly get me by doing that -_- I really didn't mean to tho, I mean the door was open and it was there.....Alright, no more excuse for me. End of this..

I kno I've aldy said it few times but I still never had the guts to do it coz I was too nervous and besides I don't really have a good reason. So finally!! I thought of one which is to ask him when will be the best time to get touch up for my tat and how long does it take to heal? hahahaha! Then I can maybe ask for his num! I can't recall the clear vision of him but I do remember he has pretty blue eyes, alot of tats and tongue pierced! YESS! lol...for some reason, I think he might be shorter than me in my memory...I know it shouldn't matter but I can't help it...blahhh! We'll c...lol! He's sooo cutee! Will keep that updateee if I do happen to call him!! well not really more like the tat place n ask for him! :)

Alrighty, I think I need to stop before I start rambling nonsense. This is by far the longest I've ever written this yr..hahaha!

too fast

I can't believe my two wks break from swimming are gone!!

I want moreee!

I was actually kinda used to being a normal student...lol.

Waking up at 4ish tomorrow morning is gonna be so much fun. NOT!!

Hopefully I'll survive at all the practices next wk -_-

Torture here I comeeeeeeee